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Work was so frickin' dead today it was unbelievable. Put it this way I spent 6 & 1/2 hours by myself before anyone even showed up in the bar. And then it was a couple of regulars they noticed I was by myself and decided they felt sorry for me so instead of going for a drive they stayed and had drinks. It was really sweet of them and the last hour and a half flew by which was good. But now I understand why no-one else wanted to work sundays and I have ended up with every sunday. I think the bit that made it worse is that I have nearly finished a 6 day shift and it has been a slow week. I so want Tuesday to come quickly!!!!!
It's getting quite bad when I can't remember what day of the week it is anymore and can't remember when things happened yesterday or today. It just seems to have all merged into one. SO NOT GOOD!!!!!!!!
The only good thing about working a 6 day shift is I get to listen to good music all day every day. And as you peeps know who read this thing from before I like my music. However the only down side of it all is the list of albums I want to get now is getting huge - whoopsie. I just guess I will put it next to my wish list and carry on adding to it. And maybe some day if I become rich i will be able to get half of it. It's quite amusing at work though I have kinda kept my music thing to myself and no one really knows how much I live on music. To be honest I kinda like it that way right now. I don't want my past with the whole singing thing to come out and I know if the music obsession came out the singing and crap would just follow. I will just have to see what happens and if I can keep my past to myself.

Drink of the day: Porn Star - Blue crackle, Red Sour Puss and 7up.

New year, new place, new life

Well I know it's been about nearly 4 months now since I last posted on this thing but I'm guessing life just happened and flew by like normal. (I wonder if anyone even reads this thing anymore?)
The month in sweden in november, was good but had it's difficult patches in equal measures. Then a week left in england, was so peachy keen - not!! That week I finally found out the people who were my friends and the people who weren't and like those things go the salt is still stinging in the wounds.
But I can finally say I made it to the other side of the world and have been living in Canada now for 2 months exactly to the day. (Yeah you read that right 2 months!! So maybe I have proven all those doubters wrong now!)
I have found myself a job at the local village bar (The Bugtussel) and am now half way through my fourth week and it seems to be going well. The locals all seem to like me as I have a funky accent which they can take the piss out of- which is fine by me. Plus it's also a very good conversation starter I have realised, so maybe the evil accent I have has some use after all.
Working in a bar is quite a new one on me but I seem to be finding my feet pretty well, other than when people start asking for drinks which I have never heard of and then I have serious brain dead issues. But it seems to be going that I learn a new drink every day which seems to be going well, if I remember them all that is. I have come to realise that Alix is one small village as I found out 2 weeks ago. A guy came into work and said " Hi meghan" and I was like hi, I never met him before in my life and already he knew my name. It was weird but nice in the same way. (More about that guy in another post at some point). So now at work I known as the Englsih chick by half of the locals who can't remember names and that is fine by me.
And on the home front, living with my brother and his family is actually going really well. I have learnt so much about all of them which there would be no way of finding out if I was still in England. And I am now happy to say that I have a great relationship with my neice and nephew. It is so nice after coming back from work by a smiling face and a hug from my neice shouting "tanty meghan you're home!". Plus getting upset and down in this household doesnt work too well. As all I have to do is look at my neice and nephew and within a few seconds one of them will have me smiling and laughing. I also think that me and Brit are finally figuring each other out after how mnay years and we aren't complete strangers to each other anymore.
I'm not trying to make out that it has all been fantastic since getting becuase it hasn't. It has only been in the last week or so that I finally stopped having daily thoughts of have I made a huge mistake moving over here? Having no friends and no one other than brit and charly to talk to as well is really hard. Yeah talking to my friends back in england and sweden on the net is great but it is not the same as a phonecall or seeing them in person. Plus now working means the chances of trying to catch any of them online is now becoming slimmer and slimmer. Plus not having the computer working for about a week didn't help matters but that is for another post and another day. The only way I seem to be getting through all of this is by reminding myself continously that I made this decision so if this difficult I can't blame anyone but myself for it. It hasn't helped that my emails to people across the pond have been becoming more and more infrequent. But I guess I am still stuck in a mind set which is working, that if I don't think about my friends that I don't miss them. So by not emailing them then I don't miss them. It sounds stupid but that is my brain so very illogical and unique to my thinking.
However I can safely say after 2 months being here I finally think I am starting to settle in and finding my feet in Canada. I am just seeing what life brings to me now. Anyway time to sleep for me as I have my 2nd day of a 6 day work shift tomorrow and I need all the beauty sleep I can get, hopefully it will change this ugly mug of mine.

Drink for the day: Vodka paralyzer - Vodka, creme de cacao, shot of coke and milk.