So the big adventure into the unknown has not turned out to be so great. What really have I achieved in my 2 years out here. In my eyes pretty much nothing.
I have had more stuff happen to me that I would ever wish upon anybody. And of course no-one out here knows anything about it. If people out here don't know about it then I can try to forget about it - somehow. Other than when it comes and finds me in my nightmares. And the people who I did break down and tell, they are pretty much non-existant parts of my life now.
Something needs to give.

I am so happy that this thing still works. And from what I can figure out no-one uses theirs anymore. So maybe I will finally get some anonymousity.