I feel so scared and lonely right now.

Dyed my hair today - so now have new nice colourful hair - WOOP WOOP!!!!

Found the best new snack - roasted broad beans... Mmmmmmmm.

It's only 12 days until sweden - YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

So it's still box madness, and trying to sort and pack everything up for moving and for my trip to sweden.

Im going up to Derbyshire on the weekend and doing the first lot of goodbye's. I will be so happy to be back up there again and back to my childhood home.

This really, really made me laugh- thanks chris!

Oh my just look whatt it brings up!!.........
1.) go to google
2.) type in "failure" without the quotes
3.) press the I'm feeling lucky button (instead of the google search one)
and
4.) Laugh

Hurry, before the good folks at google "fix" this....

Question Time:
Does anyone know the score of the Edmonton/Canucks game on saturday night?

How do you pack everything you need to move country into 35kgs?

I realised today I only have 27 days left in England until I move and I am now officially scared. I don't think it had hit me properly what I am actually doing but it has now. I don't regret the decision I have made, but it scares me so much. This is so not a me thing to do, go off to a new country, with barely no money, no job, no permanent plans and no friends near by. I think I am completely off my rocker doing this! I think the insanity has finally taken over.

Stupid British TV Schedulers!!!

Stupid tv programme schedulers over here have hacked NHL - Damn rude twats!!! They are still showing NFL every weekend, so why not NHL?! It's not at all fair!! Yet another damn good reason to be leaving this idiotic country!

I am proud to say I can now make a full thanksgiving meal for the family by myself- yay go me!! Except for this stupid country doesn't sell tinned pumpkin or cranberries because they are supposedly out of season. Wait until American Thanksgiving and the shops will be full of pumpkin, turkeys and cranberries. But I coped, I now have lots of fingers with chunks of skin missing from peeling and hacking pumpkin but the outcome was worth it. Mmmmm I get turkey soup tomorrow!

The rangers were great lastnight and I ran an evening all about Canadian Thanksgiving and they were made honorary Canadians for the evening. It was so special to me that the girls wanted to know about the things I celebrate through my heritage. And they all officially love pumpkin pie which is quite an achievement I think.

It was my parents 35th wedding anniversary yesterday and I am so proud to be their daughter. They truly are a couple who meant what they said when they made their wedding vows however difficult it has been for them over the years. If I ever find a tiny piece of the love with someone like the love they share together I will be a very happy person.

I have given up trying to get pics on my blog for the moment cos my computer just wont do it. It is slowly dying away but it has done me very well and I am just glad I get rid of it very soon! But when I get to sweden I can use my friends digital camera and her compy and will be able to put lots of pics up from my swedish adventures. WOOHOO- hopefully more exciting blog to come!

Brain in a blender!

I have wanted for so many days now but everytime I try to I just don't have the words. I don't have the words to explain how I feel or to make sense of what I am thinking.

My head just feels like someone has put it into a blender and I am now meant to make some sense of it.

I booked my flights last Friday. I am now going to Canada without the rest of my family. They will eventually be coming over when the house is sold and sorted but I am going by myself before them. I fly out on the 8th December and will be moving in with my brother and his family for the first month or so until I get the money together to rent my own apartment.

But before that I am going to go have fun in Sweden for a month and spend some quality chill out time with my friends over there. Go and be me for a while where people except me for me. It's what I need right now! So I leave on the 1st November and come back the the 30th November. I am was very impressed I got my flights including tax for £30 (return).

Not happy- last night they were meant to show the opening night of the NHL but they decided to put flippin motor cross trials on instead! So now I have to wait until next week to see if they show any of the highlights! Damn rude television programmers!